Words by – Ameen Misran
*This poem is inspired by Hilal Asyraf’s “Awak, Kita Ini Bercintakah?”
*Dipersembahkan oleh Ameen Misran of Langitilahi pada 16 Februari 2013 di Seminar Baitul Musilm 2.0, PICC.
I have never held your hands so far,
or looked into your eyes saying that how beautiful you are,
We have never gone out together,
we rarely exchange love letters together.
The only means of communication between us are
through text messages, social media and a couple of phone calls,
when I tweet, you retweet,
when I post a status on facebook, you like,
but should it be just like that?
Love and affection should be more than that.
We are in a relationship
but why do I feel like everything between us is restricted?
It feels like I’m losing you.
I can’t see you unless there’s company from a third party,
I can’t have dinner with you unless there’s intervention from our families.
Exist such distance between our hearts,
and barriers since the very start.
Our separation sometimes makes me scared,
but why, why did you keep on reminding me
“Let us get ourselves prepared”.
I don’t know, I don’t know,
I’m doubtful, are we in love?
Are we really, really in love?
Yes I know I’m wrong,
I was just carried away,
seeing all the couples out there,
at the park, at the restaurant, at the movie theater,
caressing each other,
hugging and kissing like no other,
man! That is romantic!
Seeing all at that,
makes me deprived of my love story,
I’ve always wanted an ideal love story like in the movies,
but I need to stop and let it go,
Because after every rainfall must come a rainbow.
I got to be patient,
the sweetness of happiness is always best tasted after we are tested,
this is not what Allah wants,
this not what the prophet wants,
this is not what we want.
Yes, you are right,
we are deeply in love,
not in their assumption,
but in His definition.
Neither holding our hands,
nor filling up our desired demands,
have defined a loving relationship,
but declared that bond as an abandoned ship!
Allah says that:
قُلْ إِنْ كُنْتُمْ تُحِبُّونَ اللَّهَ فَاتَّبِعُونِي يُحْبِبْكُمُ اللَّهُ وَيَغْفِرْ لَكُمْ ذُنُوبَكُمْ ۗ وَاللَّهُ غَفُورٌ رَحِيمٌ
Say, [O Muhammad], "If you should love Allah , then follow me, [so] Allah will love you and forgive you your sins. And Allah is Forgiving and Merciful" (Ali-Imran: 31).
Following the prophet is what we should do,
never ever give in to the feelings that aren’t true.
This is not our time to go beyond the boundaries,
but it’s time for us to be equipped with all the needed “expertise”,
we got to master a wide range of skills,
financial management, anger management,
Children’s education, automotive skills,
Cooking skills, house-keeping skills,
without these we are killed.
True love is how we center all our love towards the Almighty,
and prevent ourselves from entering that fiery place of severity.
In time, we will be united finally,
and we aspire to build an extraordinary family,
with amazing children who will become leaders of the community,
the leaders of the Ummah.
That destiny starts before we are married,
I cannot imagine us making sins before the day we are united,
that will defeat the purpose of Baitul Muslim, Baitul Jihad, Baitul Dakwah,
as marriage is all about attaining Barakah from Allah!
Love is everything that brings you closer to Allah,
and whatever brings you further from Allah is not love.
I’m looking forward for that day,
our synergy as one.
You will be my princess,
I’ll be your prince.
we are in love.
You are my love.
~ Ameen Misran of LangitIlahi